The world beyond Darkness
Trail Dramatic Interlude
Adrianna Blackburn So what should I think? My husband had a women on the side? Or did he just work closely with this women. I don’t know. And I’m not sure I really want to find out. Around the others I act like nothing is bothering me. But when I’m alone its all I can think about. On one hand he was all I had. When he got killed I was all alone. I chose to live a different life. His life. I wanted to take out all my anger for all that I had lost on those that took everything from me. But what if part of my life was all a lie. If he never really loved me, does any of this really matter? Have I wasted 3 years of my life seeking revenge for someone who doesn’t even care about me? Was I not enough for him? What did I do wrong? What could I have done different? No, no, no ,no, no, no. I will not put this on myself. If he was seeing someone else then he got what he deserved and it had nothing to do with me. I will not put this on myself. I have decided to investigated this women and the man mentioned in the letter. I want to find out everything I can on them. I start out by going through all the letters in my husbands box again. Maybe I missed something since I didn’t know to look for it the first time. I spent days in my room reading through all the letters. I forgot to eat or sleep. I just searched for any hidden messages or clues about either of them. Once I was done with the letters I went to the library. I didn’t pay attention to anyone around me. I don’t know if anyone noticed a difference in me because I didn’t notice anyone myself. I was to involved with figuring out who this women was. I searched through any paper I could find in the library. I fell asleep several times sitting at the desk reading. I would wake up and continue reading. Nothing was going to stop me from finding out anything I could before Father Batch could bring me any information I was going to have a big decision ahead of me. Should I go and help this women? What was there relationship? Do I owe her anything, or does she owe me? I should probably just forget about all of it and continue on living my life like I never received the letter.Did I just waste another week of my life investigating something for no reason? I was suppose to be looking for a job to help me survive. Instead I’m wasting more time worrying about someone who might not of cared for me as much as I cared about him. Father Batch is going to have to come up with good reason for me to travel so far.